I'm not sure how to start this as iv never posted on here before but here goes.
My mum was told she had breast cancer last year whilst I was pregant with my second daughter. After 9 months of treatment, losing her hair and breast we were given the all clear just before Xmas 2019.
Then in Janurary my mum had a fit which she was rushed to hospital where she went for a scan. I can still rememebr like it was yesterday the look on my mums face when the doctor came round and told us the cancer had travelled to her brain and it's untreatable, she has weeks to live. I don't think I'l ever re move that imagaine from my mind.
It's now 8 months and I don't think she has very long left, she's sleeping alot, lost weight and now on morphine for the pain. I feel the grief started that day in hospital. I remember going outside for some fresh air and this noise came out of no where then I realised it was coming out of me... I just fell to the floor and cryed like iv never cryed before. My mum isn't just a mum to me she's my world. She's helped me though some really differcult times and it's brought on panic attacks, nightmares and just really hard coping with day to day. I just want someone to take the pain away from her and myself. Only a hour ago I rang her to check how she was and we both started crying... She told me how scared she was and I just fell apart. I don't know how to cope, how to see any light, I just feel empty. I feel alone in this pain. I guess this is why I'm writing this post. Maybe hoping it will help me to write it down, May be someone can tell me it gets better. I just don't know how to be strong no more. I can't lose her she's my world.
