I am broken. Both my parents are dying and are getting closer to death each day.

my mum is currently in hospital after suffering her 4th stroke, she also has advanced dementia. Drs told me yesterday she will never get out of bed again, weighs about 6st and there is nothing more anyone can do for her except keep her comfortable till she passes.

my dad started off with inoperable prostate cancer which is now in his bones, spine, kidneys, and lungs as well. Back last October the consultant told him he wouldn’t live to see Christmas. Somehow he is still holding on but is a  skeleton, he must weigh less than 9st now. It is killing me seeing them both die before my eyes. I have no brothers or sisters and nobody else to really talk to. I was seeing a grief counsellor before lockdown but the sessions had ended. How do people cope with the pain, i just want to dose myself with sleeping tablets just to be rid of the pain for a few minutes .