Hello everyone

I'm new to the forum following my dear daddy's pancreatic cancer diagnosis. This has all happened so quickly that I'm struggling to come to terms with it. So I'm looking for stories that may offer some hope please.

A bit of background as I know all situations are very different. 

My daddy became jaundiced back in January 2020. He visited his GP who sent him to A&E straight away. He was given a scan and told he had a tumour on his pancreas - most likely cancer. At this point it was on the head of the pancreas, but was pressing against a bile duct which was causing the jaundice. He was admitted so that a stent could be fitted and an endoscopy performed the following day. A biopsy was taken during the endoscopy which confirmed the tumour on his pancreas was cancerous.

His consultant made a plan to give intensive chemo in order to shrink the tumour with a view to performing surgery ASAP. Then coronavirus hit and the plans were changed - chemo would be changed to halt the growth or spread until such times the strain on ICU was less and the surgery could be carried out. Chemo started 27th March. 

Two weeks ago today (22nd April) my daddy went for a scan. He got the results last week. The cancer has spread to his liver and there are signs it's also spreading to his lungs. The consultant didn't give a prognosis, all he said was we were looking at a matter of months now rather than year(s) as we'd first hoped. My daddy is due to start chemo again on Friday, blood results pending. But this will only be with the hope of prolonging whatever time he has left. 

My whole world has crumbled. I cannot fathom that some day very soon my daddy will be gone. He is only 59... He's approaching retirement age, when he should be able to take a step back and enjoy his life. He has worked so very hard for all these years and won't get to enjoy his pension. He has been robbed of what should have been a rewarding time of his life where he could finally focus on himself. 

I'm rambling on here but I feel unable to speak about any of this out loud. My heart is broken and I am so very frightened for what lies ahead for my daddy.

I realise that I'm lucky to have him here today, some people aren't given the gift of this time. However I feel life is now a ticking time bomb.

I would love to hear some positive stories, if there are any.

Thank you