Hello

My mum died yesterday in hospital suddenly and it has broken my heart. She had cancer, but contracted COVID 19 and died. This virus is disgusting and is taking not just good people from us, but taking away our freedom and we can't see those we love most it breaks my heart. Your poor dad, it is soul destroying enough just having terminal cancer but this horrific virus on top of that'... unbearable. I am so sorry- so many people suffering...

My Dad was same at first he would let the pain get to well past a 10 before taking his oramorph then it got so bad his liver was blocked and they had ptc stent inserted and they encouraged him that a syringe driver was best thing for pain . I hope your Dad seeks help if not you can have a discrete chat with his GP . They need to have some quality of life than suffering all this pain.

I'm so sorry for you loss and sending hugs all the way to you . Its devastating we are in Scotland and my Gran is in England desperately  wanting up the road to her son with his brothers and there family to make sure they see him plenty before his time comes .

Thankyou for responding, it breaks my heart that this covid 19 means I cant be with him. Hes a martyr to cancer, he doesn't want to give in to it, he is only 62 years old, the strongest pain killers hes prepared to take are gabapentin even though he has oramorph and temazepam stockpiled because he doesn't want the doctor to know he isn't taking it, it hurts because he was a nurse for 21 years he says, Morphine shortens your life, hes seen what happens once the driver comes so hes pretending ( because of corona he doesn't have to let anybody know the state hes in, but he admitted it and in not so many words I believe he managed to speak with me on the phone for 40 seconds last night, that was my goodbye,)  hes pretending he is ok, I think he is scared and kidding only himself. It may sound selfish but I'm praying god to take him, not something I would usually ever contemplate but even though I've been touched by cancer a lot, they were elderly grandparents and therefore easier to accept that at 82 year they had lived a full life still horrible but age was coming for them too, and my young Aunt who gladly survived after a terminal diagnosis, it was a clinical drug trial that saved her, I am really struggling with the enormity of not just losing him but feeling lost because I cant do anything or even visit. Thankyou your advice to confide in his doctor is invaluable really appreciate it xxx So sorry for your Dad, must be so hard, I know dads picked the song jealous of the Angel's, but in the words of that song "in a world where heroes come and Go, Gods just took the only one I know and I dont want to be jealous of the Angel's sitting round Gods throne tonight" your dad will be one of those Angel's I'm sure x