My dad was diagnosed with bowel cancer about two years ago and now hes in a hospice for his final days, i first found out he was going to die when i saw him. He was weak, his teeth were rotting, his eyes were yellowish and he was very weak, i didnt know what to say or do. i just cried, when i got home i wrote a letter to him. after i read it to him we were both upset and he just said i love you, it will be okay over and over again and i held his hand tight. i havent seen him since i have been at school and trying to distract myself and its been so hard, my teachers have been supporting me but i think the hardest thing is this girl called rachel in my school has been telling me im lying and told everyone else. thats the hardest thing, me being constantly reminded that my dad is gonna die. im just waiting for that day and its so hard to sleep and eat. im currently making a memory box. im currently 15 years old and i feel too young to lose him. im trying to ignore that rachel girl but its so hard when everyone thinks your lying about whats really goinhg on and reminding you, without thinking "what if its true, how could she be feeling?" i will post again soon after a few days :cry: :(
