My dad was diagnosed with unknown primary source cancer at Christmas, it had spread considerably by the time he was diagnosed to his lungs, liver and lymph nodes, he was given  months at best.   He  then had to be admitted to hospital and they  did tests which showed the lung cancer had grown significantly in short time they then said it would most likely be weeks rather than months. This was just after new year. 

So I have been trying to spend as much  time as I possibly can, the problem is I have four children and still trying to keep normal routine and work  as much as I possibly can as I am self employed, my dad and family live an hour and 20 minute away so I can't just nip round,  I feel guilty when not here  for my kids but then on other hand feel guilty when not with my dad.  We also have a family holiday booked for 5 weeks time and I can't even begin to think about going and enjoying it but my kids are really looking forward to it so I know I have to.

It  seems he  is now in his final days or weeks, sleeping alot, barely eating and very confused but he is battler, he's not going without a fight.

Not sure  what advice anyone can give me I suppose I just needed to get it off my chest

Thanks for  reading