We found out today that Mum's cancer has spread. It's a rare type but seems to be affected in multple areas includng secondary cancer of the liver and possibly another cancer has been found elsewhere. It's in her lymphnodes. The doctors don't know how much time she has left but she had a marker of 45 and in 3 months this has risen to 170. They've said it's now rapidily progressing.
I'm so frightened, the other day it seemed she had maybe a few years left. Now, maybe a few months, a few weeks? We just don't know. She's my best friend and has always been there for me. I don't know what I will do without her in my life. I know it's easy to say, by she's honestly, the nicest person you will ever meet. Does everything for anyone else, even now. Not a bad bone in her body. What do I do, with the time I have left with her, apart from the obvious, in spending time with her? I feel lost and worried that I'll regret not doing something. Something I'll never be able to do again, that I'll miss an opportunity. I already feel like I'm going to miss so much. She'll never see me have children or get married. She won't even see me achieve my biggest career goals x
