Hi there 

So sorry you are going through this - what an awful and terribly stressful time you are going through. It's no wonder you're feeling on the edge. 

I'm just wondering if anyone around you could help you manage everything you're juggling at the moment...do you have any friends or family members who you could ask? Even if it's just them helping you to do school runs, housework, cook meals, babysit kids, giving you lifts, help with washing, ironing and shopping? What about other Mums you are friendly with? Don't be afraid to ask for help...I'm always reluctant to but have had recent experience of needing it to manage a stressful period and several people coming forward (even some surprising ones who I didn't think would) which was a great relief. 

Could your husband take some time off work to help? Annual leave? A period of unpaid leave? Or put in a request to work flexibly (for example, from home) to take the pressure off? Even if he could do this for a week or two, this would no doubt help you xxx 

I'm here because I lost a parent due to cancer which was lung, spread to the other lung and liver (and likely elsewhere). Sadly, we didn't have long after the diagnosis but how long is really dependent on the person affected xxx I wonder if you can sneak in a word with your Mum's medical team....if you do want to know xxx 

You are really going through it right now xxx please come back here and let off steam any time you need. It is very distressing to watch loved ones being delirious and going through hallucinations...I know how awfully upsetting this is to observe. Hopefully your Mum will be made more comfortable under palliative care (they're experts at this stuff) and this can be resolved. 
 

perhaps now is a good time to have a think about what you need to do to reduce the terrible stress you are under xxx again - don't be afraid to ask for help...xxxx