I know it's ridiculous but I still can't believe it. She was diagnosed with terminal cancer August last year. She's only 41 and so determined. In the last week she's gone down hill massively and I can't get my head around it. She's my best friend and we speak nearly every day through text. My last text from her was Saturday but now she's mostly sleeping and I haven't seen her for a week as she said she was too tired to see me. I can't join the dots in head to how she was to how she is now. I don't know why I'm posting this but I'm just at a loss.