Terminal and fighting

Hi, I am Jenny, 

suffered with back pain for 3 months, eventually get x Ray told wear and tear go home and live with it. Only by chance had appointment with consultant to replace knee joint, explained could not have op as pain too severe in back, he arranged MRIscan within  48 hours. Had scan collapsed over chair taken to A and E, 5 hours later told I had camce r in spine but it had to be coming from somewhere else. Taken to ward, 3hours later told I had terminal cancer, and only palliative care would be given. I was all on my own. I was totally terrified. Thought I would be dead by Christmas. Told hospital staff not to tell my son, as I would do it when I got home. This was Friday had biopsy Tuesday 3pm, sent home 9pm. Told son, it was the most heart wrenching thing I have ever done, he is only 24, he just hit the floor, I knew I could not cry that I had to stay strong. As I had no symptoms apart from back, thought they must have this wrong, but within 10 days ringing 999, I realized I was ill. I was now given the news I would be put on immunotherapy. I have been having treatment since October every 3weeks, I am still here, still have no symptoms only pain in back, have reduced morphine down to 40mg per day, trying hard to stay positive, not always easy, would like to hear from anyone going through anything similar would just like someone to chat to. I do not know when things will turn and do not want to be given any timescale, it is so scary just knowing you may not have long, but hopefully I still have a long way to go yet, positive thinking. Hope someone replies. Love Jenny

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  • Hi jenny, I'm not same as you (male,) as well as being non curable i know it'll get me sooner or later mines in prostate, lymph nodes, spine, ribs and pelvis and one lung I've had it over 3 years now like you i know it's not nice living with it, but we've not much choice, it's possible there are others (terminal) on the forum oh and welcome to the club nobody wants to join, if nobody else joins your welcome to talk to me (if you want to) have a good look around you could find others, some people stay on the one string others go all over the place to look around,. Whatever happens they'll be someone to talk to on here,. Best wishes.

    Billy 

  • Hi Billy

    Thanks for replying. You are dead right it will get us sooner or latet, so we just have to go on living best we can. I was told in beginning if they can get me through the 2 years of treatment, I should live a good few years after, do not know if true.or not but been going 9 months now and I feel fine. Hope you keep doing fine too. Jen x

  • Hi jen I'm stage 4, did specialist say terminal you sound more non curable same as me, i was given 5 years specialist said I'd need more cemo before first year was up I've not had any more yet, they don't always get it right also they are always causous of saying wrong things so you only get half truths I'm like you i feel fine apart from getting older and more aches and pains, good 1 for you i started getting bad pains in both legs went to GP straight away he said its my C, i saw specialist couple of weeks later told him about it he said straight away it's not C it's treatment I'm on, that was a big relief, it just shows don't always trust your doctor, best wishes,

    Billy 

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  • Hi jen I'm stage 4, did specialist say terminal you sound more non curable same as me, i was given 5 years specialist said I'd need more cemo before first year was up I've not had any more yet, they don't always get it right also they are always causous of saying wrong things so you only get half truths I'm like you i feel fine apart from getting older and more aches and pains, good 1 for you i started getting bad pains in both legs went to GP straight away he said its my C, i saw specialist couple of weeks later told him about it he said straight away it's not C it's treatment I'm on, that was a big relief, it just shows don't always trust your doctor, best wishes,

    Billy 

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