Hi Shannon - very sad news about your mum. It's a terribly difficult situation so it's not surprising you're struggling to deal with it, everyone in your situation feels the same way. I think it's even more difficult when you are only 19 & your mum is so young too.

Nothing I can say will ease the pain of it but I can say that somehow you will find a way to deal with whatever is to come. The best thing you can do is to try your best not to think too much about tomorrow or next week or next month. Just concentrate on today & spending as much time with your mum as you can. You'll find that you will help each by talking honestly about your fears. But you'll also find, hard though it might be to understand, that you'll also find things to smile about too. 

As I say sweetie, it's so important that you try to concentrate on what's happening today & what you need to do today that matters most. Let tomorrow take care of itself.

Post here whenever you'd like & someone will come along to offer you a bit of moral support. Love x