Hi Georgia...

Oh hunny .. I'm so so sorry your going through this heartbraking time at the moment... your nan sounds amazing ... and you know, she's held on till you've grown ... and my granddaughter is my world ... she's only 7 and I've had breast cancer from 2017 with a grade 3 .. so my worst fear is not seeing her grow up ..  we adore each other ... and I can't imagine how she'd be ..when she asked me if I was going to die... I've told her if I do , I'll be that little star next to the brightest one who we've always said is my mum's star .. so every night I can look down and watch over her as she sleeps .. and she can look up and see me ...

You won't loose your nan ... she'll stay tucked up in your heart ... where you'll keep her safe, and take her through your life's journey... I know I'll be looking over my Emily... I bet your nan will do the same ..

Sending you a vertual hug.... Chrissie  

Always here if you want a chat ... Chrissie x

Hi Georgia

I relate to your pain. My maternal grandparents raised me and losing my Gran absolutely floored me.

I can't offer any specific advice on her final journey with cancer, my Gran died after a long battle with vascular dementia. 

Try to hold on to the good memories you have, sometimes the memories of seeing your loved one in their last days can be almost overwhelming but that does fade with time and the happy memories return. Treasure all the moments of 'normality'; my Gran reached a stage where she didn't know who people were but occasionally she would have a moment or 2 of lucidity and became the person I knew again, it was a great chance to tell her the things I wanted her to know. Don't be afraid to make time for yourself. When a loved one is ill our desire to be with them can lead to us neglecting ourselves, if you need 5 minutes to gather your thoughts then take them. I found the 'sanctuary' at our local hospital a great place, it was an area set aside for people to pray, relax, contemplate or just sit and was open to those anyone, religious or otherwise. I come from a large Catholic family and my Gran regularly prayed the Rosary, I found sitting doing the same for 10 minutes every so often very comforting. Likewise the hospital chaplaincy service can be very good, the Priests, Ministers etc can be a great comfort regardless of whether you are religious or not. Don't be afraid to say no to people. If you wish to be alone with your Nan and close family in her final days then don't feel obliged to let a procession of distant relatives or friends visit. Explain calmly and clearly that this is your time now and you wish to spend it together.

Good luck to you and your Nan in your journeys. I pray you both find peace in the days and weeks ahead.