been with my dad today and it’s getting so hard , we were told on New Year’s Eve that he had months to live not years and until today I haven’t thought he was going to leave us . He’s always been so strong but today me and my sister had to lift him from his bed because he is so weak to give him his meds , he said he doesn’t want to be here now , he looks so frail and sounds so tired it’s breaking my heart , don’t want him to go but I can’t bare seeing him this way