Hi all my name is Maria and I am 53 years young, I was diagonised with breast cancer 18 months ago and celebrated my 12 month remission in December 2018. Then due to having a constant cough I visited my doctor in January and following an x-ray foun nodles on my lungs. Following this I then had a CT scan. The results were devastating. I have stage 4 bowel cancer with secondary in both liver and lungs and the lmph nodes. I was given 12 months to live. I am currently waiting for a stent to be fitted in my colon on Thursday, then having a port fitted in my chest next week to start the the chemo. Without the Chemo I have been told i have 6-9 months left, with the Chemo they have said if it works this may extend to 2 years. I am terrified that if it dosent work I won't see christmas.
Normally when you are ill you go to doctors/hospital you get treated and get better, I cant get my head around the fact that I am never going t get better. I am terrified of dying and l keep praying for a miracle and cant accept that im not going to get better. Sorry for going on but wondering if anyone else out there is going throuhg the same xxx
