Hi there ..think we all know what you mean ..it's like grieving for the life pre cancer .. and like grieving , there's no easy way through .. but wer still here .. I look at the scar where my boob used to be .. and the scar for my hysterectomy.  ... and scar for my ceaserian. . Looks like a patchwork quilt ...

But it's about getting all those feelings out .. a good scream .. rant at the world, and how unfare it all seems .. and then saying o.k .. life's a bummer but wer still here today .. l look at every day as a bonus .. and will face whatever trys to knock me back ..

I look at my Brest scar and the way l deal with it is to think it's a small price to pay, to still see my kids and grandkids. . It's about balance ... and you know what ... wer not alone.. there's loads of us on this journey. . Cancer wants you to feel like giving up .. fall down and stay there ... then it's won .. well get it out .. and then get back in the ring with all of us and let's kick cancers butt down the road .. it's not about winning or loosing, it's about looking it in the eye ... and not letting it change who you are ..

Yes we may never get back to the old us ... but let's make the best of this us that we can ..sending you a vertual hug... hang on in there ... Chrissie