My Dad was diagnosed with advanced prostate cancer 3 months ago. It's terminal.

I haven't had time to think of my own thoughts and feelings because I have to be strong for the rest of my family and make surentheyre okay. However, I feel quilting for some of the thoughts/feelings I am having...

My Dad is tired and has some things going on physically but he's not ill at the moment...that is yet to come.

He's capable of living but it's like he's given up. We don't know how long he's got, it could be a week, it could be 4 years but he can't live the rest of his days sinking in the thoughts of death.

It's easy for me to say, I know, but I'm the only one he speaks to. I'm the only one ANYONE speaks to. I'm trying to help, listen, be there, be strong but I'm breaking. I don't know how long I can remain positive for him and it's tough.

I've suggested he talks to a Macmillan nurse to help but he refuses. He'll only talk to me. He's also said he wants to die at home not in a hospice but he wants ME to be the one to find him when it happens. 

Of course I'll do anything that makes him happy but I'm struggling as nothing does.

Any help would be much appreciated.

Thank you