My wonderful husband was diagnosed with oesphageal cancer in August 2017 and he went through the ringer in terms of operations and treatments. He had a scan in April which was clear.  Yesterday we were given the devastating news its back and he has about 12 monthst to live if we can get the chemo to reduce the speed of the spread.  Less if not.

I am so scared.  We have been together for 33 years, don't have children and are everything to each other. I want to be positive and supportive but all I can do is cry and throw up.  I can't imagine my life without and I'm terrified that my lovely man will suffer horribly.  I want to run away but I know I can't.

Please tell me that these feelings will calm down and I can start thinking sensibly again soon.

Ruth x