Hi there ...

Be kind to your self, no wonder you feel so vulnerable.. your not only loosing your much loved dad, your going to have a new life soon too .. your hormones must be going crazy ... I can't imagine how you are even looking strong to any one ... how does your heart know how to feel ... it must feel so confused ..

This is one of the hardest times you'll ever have in your life ... so tell yourself it's o.k to feel everything your feeling ... when we hold too much in, it all comes tumbling out in the end .. so having a cry at night is just your brain and heart letting go of some of the pressure your feeling ..l lost Beth my mum and dad in my 30s ... and remember how heartbraking it was ...

But as hard as it is going to be, make the most of every day with your dad ... hold each other, share tears... and you know it's o.k to admit your scared .. we try too often to put on a brave face ... when we just need to balance everything .. and your baby is a quarter of your dad .. so you won't loose him, he'll be there in your new baby ... l know this, because my cancer journey has made me make the most of each day .. I've prepaired my son, granddaughter and my wonderfull nieces.. and I've made all my plans and written letters that are all tucked away safely, and I'm so glad I did .. now I can concentrate on me ...

So if your dad does want to say bout things he wants or needs to, it may help him like it helped me ...

Sending you a big hug ...  chrissie