Hi, I am new here and hope that I will be able to talk to others going through similar situations :/ I am 18 and previously when I was little my dad who is 45 had battled leukaemia which made life difficult for him even years later having lots of medications and trips to the hospital often but at the start of this year he noticed a mark on his mouth. It turned out to be squamous cell carcinoma and in march he went through a 12 hour operation to remove the cancer and lymph nodes leaving a lot of scars on his face and neck so a couple of weeks ago we had thought he had recovered and was getting ready to go back to work! he said how he was feeling better ect but the area on his neck had started to feel hard or swollen so we werent sure if it was part of the healing process or something but when he had it checked he was called into a meeting. They told him that the cancer had returned and is located somewhere to dangerous to operate :( he has 'weeks to months to live' which is really scary for me because thats such a broad way to wonder how much time we have left together. last week he said he felt fine and wasnt in pain but in the space of a week his neck and face has swelled more and his painkiller has been increased to a patch and I think it was morphine? I am so scared to watch him get worse and suffer :( he keeps telling me how painful it is and I dont know what I can do , I want to spend timw together and make memories but he is becoming more tired and irritable to the point where he doesnt want to leave the house for more than half an hour or so , I dont want to annoy him or make it harder on him ..I just feel so helpless :( I always thought he would be there to see me grow up and walk me down the aisle ect but now the future is very foggy for me