Hi, I've never posted on a forum before and I didn't imagine that if I ever did it would be something like this. My dad was diagnosed with bowel cancer a few years ago. He had treatment, part of his bowel removed and we were led to believe that they had got it all. Just over a year ago my dad dropped the bombshell that the cancer was back, it had also spread to his lungs. We were also told they can never cure it only try to slow it down.
I saw my dad this weekend and I know he has been going for scans etc. Hes on the final type of treatment he can recieve to try and slow it down. We find out on Wednesday if it has been successful. If not then unfortunately there isnt anything else they can do. There was the mention of trials but apparently due to his bloods he cant have them.
Hes lost so much weight, hes looking so unwell and I am just fearing the worst. I'm getting married in June and I feel lucky he is still here and its only really just dawned on me that he won't be here forever. There is a chance he might never see me have my own children, they will never know this incredible man.
We are all trying to stay positive. Ive asked him how he is feeling and he is very breezy about the whole thing but I know he is worried. I feel selfish for being upset as god knows how he must be feeling.
I'm just not ready to lose my dad.
