My dad is dealing with everything okay. He says he can switch off from his emotions but I know that he is sad deep down. He said he's going to miss watching us all grow up. 

And yeah i see my dad whenever I can, almost every day, and i sort of make it my job to make him better, especially because the doctors are useless. They were supposed to refer him to palliative care because of his pain but never did. 

And your situation sound really similar to mine! My brother is also avoiding it and going out on weekends on "binges". Where as my weekends consists of working and looking after my dad. 

My sister helps who has basically took my moms place as shes never been around. But i just don't know how everything's gonna work when hes gone. I miss him now when im 5 mins drive away. I can't imagine what it's gonna be like when i cant call him 3 times a day everyday. 

And my dad said he isnt scared of dying because he's used to pain by now. I've referred him for a second opinion in a big hospital in birmingham. As the one we are at now doesn't have many specialists and the equipment is not great. So hopefully they can shed some light. 

My dads cancer hasn't spread to other parts of the body just lung and lymph node but apparently because the cancer is in his pleura in the lung... That makes it stage 4 and inoperable and incurable. 

Hope you're doing well with everything too. What course are you studying at uni? and exams are soon too which sucks but i may apply for extenuating circustances and get extentions. 

Sorry to hear that, I'm sure he appreciates the time he gets to spend with you. Yeah i know what you mean even when i try do other things, my mind goes back to my dad. Feeling so helpless and knowing you can't take their pain away is heartbreaking. x