Hi there ... my heart goes out to you being so young ... life is so unfare ... there's quite a few of your age going through this at the moment ... so your not on your own ... but that doesn't help how heartbroken you feel ... the only thing I can say is hold on to every day... make some good memories .. really talk to your dad , ask him all what's in your heart, and listen to his ... find out what music he likes and share it with him... ask him about his childhood .. is there anything he still wants to do ... somewhere he'd like to go ... share tears, hugs, and it's o.k to tell each other your scared sometimes ... 

I lost my mum to a heart attack and never got the chance to tell her how much I love her.. or have a last mummy hug .. I would give anything to have just one more day ... you have that chance I never had ... so look at it a little different ... you have been given a little time to do all those things you don't get to do, when a parent goes suddenly... you will go through so many different emotions, we all did and it's normal to feel them ... if you get the chance to get some counciling,  grab it soon as you think it may help ... I'm sure a call to mcmillan will give you information on where to get it ... 

So sending you a caring hug ... you are braver then you realise ... we're always here if you need to chat .. take care of your heart ... chrisie  xx