We know each other since 10 years old, fell in love at 19 years old, just married officially in Dec 2015 and I followed him to the UK in early 2016
3 months ago we still had a lovely holiday in Netherlands with his sister's family, and today I am sitting beside his bed in hospital, learning from doctors that his cancer is agressive and uncurable and he's in a very very very poor condition and no treatment can be done...they asked me to let him die in dignity...they even didn't know what his cancer is, except it mets to his bone, brain and all over his body...
I don't know why thing can change so much in such a short period of time? He is my best friend, my first love, we always be together. We've just bought our first house and before we learnt about his cancer, we were taking supplements to prepare for having our first baby...
Suddenly nothing makes sense anymore, I feel like my past with him was just a bug illusion, our happiness was a big lie of God and our future is scattered... Never in my wildest dream I would dream of losing him like this
He's such a young energetic loving man, who always hug me abd cuddle me through all the nights, who hold my hands, kiss my face every morning before leaving home, he spoiled me so so much and we never argue about anything
i was always so proud for finding the love of my life so early in life, I'm always so proud about our relationship, so proud of him..he means everything and everything to me....I always thought I am the most lucky and most happy girl in this World. I even told him I dream we will die together maybe in a car crash or a plane crash, so that we can both leave this world together....
The first moment the doc told him this cancer will shorten his life magnificently, he turned to me and cried "Honey I'm sorry I wont be able to take care for you abymore..."
I don't want anything, I only want my dear husband healthy and lively as he is months ago!!! Why God? why him???
