hi firstly i am so sorry for your loss , i really dont know how i will get through those final days but i have to be strong , docs said 2 /3 months now in 6th i really do feel like im on a roller coaster , i just want it to stop now some days are harder than others as im sure you know .. anyway im here to if u need a chat , big hugs back xxx

Hi nessbx,

I am new to this and was just reading some of the posts, firstly I am not great at hugs and a bloke so if your hubby doesn't mind I have sent you my best attempt at a hug. Cancer is a difficult thing and what made it more difficult for me was worrying about what my family and loved ones were going through. I read in one of the posts that they suggested counselling, I am a trained counsellor/coach and would love to help you (no charge) if you think it would help. 

thanks for the hug and offer to help i wil keep it in mind , i have been given a st giles councilor number so im ok for now thank you tho  .

Hi Nessbx

Just wanted to give you a hug ... I have just signed up to this ... my dad also has oesophageal cancer he is just turned 76.  He had chemo last year, they told us 18 to 24 months, which means possibly 2/3 months too.  Like you I've no siblings either, and I also feel really anxious as I am also watching him slowly declining ... it's sheer hell on earth.   Lost my mum 19 years ago to ovarian cancer and I don't have anymore family apart from hubby and my beautiful doggy.  Keep on in there and yes it does help to know that we are not alone.  xxxxx

hi thank you for your reply iv had a horried couple of days watching my mum hardly eat her bmi is now 14 and to be malunorished is 0 she is a 2 ... weighing abou 4 and a bit stone , beacuse shes in denyal ,its so hard for me to try and keep pretending everythings ok , so sorry about your dad im here if you wanna chat will send u a frieend request , big hugs back xxx

Hi Ness

really sorry I haven't been into this for ages, bless you just wanted to say hello and sending hugs yes please send friend request.  I'm a bit new to all this and don't really understand how it works so please bear with me. xxx Fergie

Hi Ness,

It sounds as if you are really going through it. You have my sympathy for this, as it is so difficult to appear positive at this stage. It is devastating to watch a loved one fading before your eyes, yet not being able to do anything to change things.

Don’t worry – you will find the strength of character to see this through.

I am thinking of and praying for you both.

Big cyber hugs.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

thank you so much jolamine , some days are harder than others , x