I haven done any post 4 while but 2 day I feel I need 2 . As most of u know my mother terminally Ill with bowel cancer she ok still fighting and still with us . This post not about her as such . It's about my mothers mother my gran she 97 she haven got cancer I just need get my head around what happening. My gran was taken into hospital last Wednesday by her doctor about her breathing the hospital said she had chest infection she was given antibiotics and oxygen she seemed 2 be doing ok so we thought. Every time any of us went down the hospital we always asked how she doing and they say fine . My gran started being sick and can't eat or drink so they put her on drip my hubby went 2 see her last nite and he asked how she was they told him u need 1 of the family 2 have chat with doctor. My father went went and had word with doctor he was told my gran got heart failure and kidneys not working they stopped all treatment and it's matter of time b4 she dies. They have said if she still her Monday they will move her I'm hoping they move her 2 hospice where she is she in ward and it's not nice 4 her. She so thin she only 4 stone and she so weak she was holding my sister hand and saying she had enough. Now I'm struggling so bad with everything going on what we going through with my gran we be going through it with my mother and it's killing me I haven slept and I can't stop crying I feel like I'm in nite mere it's 1 thing after another . I feel so sorry 4 my mother it's killing me my heart broken I feel so scared I don't know what do . My head like world wind why I'm posting this I don't know because it's nothing 2 do with cancer . I think I need someone 2 talk 2 :(