Hi National40, I'm so sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I was diagnosed with pre-stage Granulosa Cell Tumour in my ovaries two months ago. I am 40. I'm guessing that you feel so alone because friends and family either don't know yet, or have distanced themselves once you've told them; this has been my experience. I am scared as well. I have found that doing all my favourite things help. I try not to stay in the house on my own for two long. I go to my favourite places; I practically go to my favourite coffee shop every day. I sit, have my favourite coffee, read a book or a newspaper; have a friendly chat with the barista or another customer. I go to my favourite art , music and clothes shops. I take myself out to lunch and listen to an audiobook while I eat. I think I will treat myself to the cinema tomorrow. What I am trying to say is be kind to yourself. Indulge in comfort food; indulge in your favourite hobbies, it's what has helped me so far. Go to a beauty salon get a new hair-do or your nails done. Be kind to yourself. I write down how I am feeling in a diary I've kept since my diagnosis, it helps. I can get all my feelings out without fearing of scaring anyone away. Plan even if it's little day trips in advance to give you something to look forward to, some thing worth getting out of bed for. If you have friends and family that are willing to listen, talk to them. Don't let your thoughts get the better of you, distract your mind from thinking the worst. I dont know if you are religious, but my Catholic faith has been a comfort to me. Even if you don't belong to a church, a priest can also be comforting. Sometimes just having a really good cry can help to momentarily relieve the stress and anxiety. I hope this has helped. Vee3