Hi Amanda,

I am so sorry that you are having to deal with this, it must be so upsetting. I cannot relate to what you are going through, although after having being recently diagnosed with cancer, this is my biggest fear. But it's really good to reach out. There are wonderful nurses here that can help, and I am certain that the Macmillan nurses willl be more than happy to spend time talking to you about how to deal with this awful time. You can ring them on 0808 808 0000. They were amazing for my friend when she lost her Dad.

Don't worry about work right now. Of course you need the money, but you need to try and stay as healthy as you can so that you can deal with everything. It might be an idea to write down everything you are worried about, and then start working through the list. You will find that some things you know exactly what to do, and you can get on and do it. With the others, you can get advice from Macmillan or citizens advice. Hopefully you will feel better by having a bit of plan so that you can spend some time with your Mum and Dad without constantly feeling overwhelmed and scared.

Just on the panic attacks, I've suffered with these in the past. It's definitely worth talking to your Dr. There may some magic potion that will help you for a while.

let me know how it all goes, big hugs for you and your family xxxxx