My dad has had cancer for almost 4 years and this past year has had to be the hardest ever the hospital had stopped his chemo as it wasn't working then we got him the cannabis oil and that was a waste of money.  Since December he has been deoriting every day its hard to see my dad like this has he was a fit person done things like going out but now he can't.  It is so hard to see him like this and I feel so lost I am constantly crying and sleeping. I see my sad every day and he is getting weaker and weaker that I can't control my tears around family. How do I cope I can't and don't wanna lose him but I know one day Him Up above is going to take him.