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Help dad has stage 4 lung cancer !!! I feel like I'm dying

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My dads has a lot of health problems over the years of my childhood I've been caring for him sence I was 15 I'm know 35... his had intermediate claw dictation which is narrowing of the artires he had a pigs valve replacement...

his had 2 heart attack ,, 2 gangrene, diabetes,, 1 stroke,,

and then last November they said they found a shadow which turned out to be cancer they trained to take the tumor out but it's was to deep and to bad,,,,

know had the cancer nurse told me today it's stage 4 ,,,

that's it ant it ,,,

his dying and there's nothing I can do

his my superman my dad my mom my best friend 

I don't want to say goodbye I still need him

my oldest son has a.s.d his very close with my dad .. when I had my son c section my dad was there with me he was the first person to hold him .

please someone tell me how to cope ,, 

i keep crying ,,hoping that I go to sleep and wake up and this is not happening...

please why my dad why couldn't it be some vile nasty monster in prison that hurt or murdered someone why my dad 

 

 

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    Hi I'm so sorry for all you're going through but you do need help to cope with this, it always seems to be the good people that it takes, I'm a survivor and I had all the help I needed but you need more, have you contacted McMillan nurses? they are the best so that would be my first phone call, I'm here if you need to talk, my name is Heather text me anytime I'll get back to you asap. 

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    My mum passed away from breast cancer .she stayed at home with me I did everything for her wish help me come to terms with her cancer .we made special memories together on good days we got in the car and went out only which was lovely , I went to all appointments with her and I had the support from our gp and nurses it's was the most scary thing I had ever had to do is watch my love one died and they nothing I could do to stop it no control over it .i remember the day a nurses came and my mum said please can I tell you want I want to happen I was shocked to hear it' all her funeral what she wanted to wear and ask me to make sure she was clean ( her words was clean bra / knickers as one is seeing her bits lol ) I don't know what else to say to you to help you but I do know your pain and that you seem a strong woman I remember the day my mum died and I went outside for fresh air and everything was the same cars , people walking when I expect it all to stop it was a weird thing /feeling we are all here for you try and keep strong xx
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    I'm angry when u see strangers smile and people on facebook complain about the ironically ironing I mean really I'm here with this .I know life short I know my dads so many health problems but this is one thing he won't over come ..Thank u so much for yr comment .. I was hoping when I woke up today and this was all a dream then it came crashing down in me again 

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    Thank you for yr comment x

    It was hard last night stayed up tell 1 am talking with my partner jon about my dad crying and then I stopped then while I was in bed when partner asleep I just couldn't stop crying I went to sleep crying.. I woke up at 5am crying is this going to get easier?? I've been to so many funerals never of them as close as me and dad it's always been me and dad against the world.. he has two other son's never been around really a good 20year's but his middle son has come to spend time with him and helping looking after him which for me that's hard I feel pushed out .. all my kids are 13,11,9 I wish I could be there with my dad 24/7 I feel guilty 

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