Hi! I'm new to this so thought i'd introduce myself and share my situation. 

My dad was very fatigued and had fluid in his legs which increased during december 2015. At first the doctors thought he had heart problems but after many months of tests a scan revieled that he had a tumour in his esophagus. 3 days later we found out that it was cancer and on August 3, 2016 we were told it was terminal. 

Dad has been through a few rounds of chemo with side effects progessing however the tumour decreasing in size. This had a quick end when asthma 2 months ago prevented him from continuing chemo for a month and in that time his tumour increased dramatically and we were told that the chemo was no longer working for him. Today he commenced another chemo and in 2 weeks he will begin treatment on immunotherapy as a last resort. 

I'm on this website because I'm 21 and I'm at a loss of what to do. I'm very close with my dad and so are my mum and two brothers. Mum has alot of close friends however I'm woried for her mental health as she's watching the one she loves slowly deteriorate. My brothers have long-term girlfriends that they can vent to and seem to be doing okay but then I'm left single and alone. I too have alot of friends who were very supportive at first but at the end of the day i feel like their lives are so busy - they give their sympathy and say they'll be there but then they continue living happily while I'm stuck with a sick dad and the reality that it is only going to get worse. I feel like a burden on those around me when I bring it up because people my age don't know how to deal with death or how to respond to the situation without feeling awkward. i feel like no one really understands what I'm going through and there's no 'how to' guide when trying to deal with it all. I just feel like it's a nightmare that I can't wake up from.