My mum was diagnosed with oesophageal cancer on 20 April 2016. Since that day it has been so hard for her. Rapidly she was unable to swallow food and had to have a stent inserted. The pain this caused her has never improved. The months have passed and a second stent inserted. Now the symptoms that the stent is failing have returned and this time there will not be a third stent. My mum tells me not to be upset, that she's tired and ready to go. My mum has always been my best friend, always there, always supporting me. I can't imagine her gone, I feel like a child, where do I turn to. Knowing that others are going through the same situstion right now brings comfort. Tomorrow I take my mum to the nursing home, she won't be returning to her little home. It breaks my heart. I am told she has weeks left. I have been with her for 9 months on and off. Somehow juggling my own family and full-time job. I have been lucky getting time off to deal with each crisis but now the end is near I am breaking down inside while being positive for my mum. I don't want her to see me upset, but I cry for her, myself my dad. We have gone as far as we can with her, together, but soon she will go and my heart is breaking. I love my mother with all my heart, I cannot imagine life without her.
