Dad only has 4 weeks left to live :(

My dad was diagnosed with terminal prostate cancer a year ago, that had spread to the lymph nodes and to some of the lungs. Then 7 months later it has spread to his spine, then towards and during Xmas he was deteriorating.....,.not eating or drinking , as it was too painful to swallow, and he was generally getting weaker. After Xmas we took him to hospital (even though he was demanding NOT to go there) and we were told the awful news that the cancer had also spread to the liver and bowels, and that none of the treatment (hormone therapy and abiriterone) was working, (he can't have radiotherapy or chemo) and that he only had 6 weeks left to live - I had a feeling that he would die his year (2017) but not this soon! Today, 2 weeks later, he's still in hospital, cus he keeps getting infections. Hopefully he'll be released to go home this week. He doesn't know that he only has (now) 4 weeks left to live, as he doesn't want to know, but WE DO know, and hence why we are so desperate to get him home. He will have palliative care by district and hospice nurses at home, I'm just dreading it as I've been preparing for this for the past year, but now I know it's going to happen anytime soon, I'm not ready, and we've not able to be with him properly for the past 2 weeks whilst he's been in hospital! I'm in shock I think, as i haven't cried since I found out he has only a few weeks left to live, whereas I have cried loads throughout the past year?! It feels like a bad dream, and when he is discharged from hospital, it will feel like he's coming home properly cus he's better, but he will be coming home to die  :((((((  there's so much I wanted to say to him, before he goes, but he's so disorientated and gets so tired and sleeps a lot that he doesn't take anything in, or he's snappy, and he doesn't know he's going to die anytime in the next few weeks, whereas WE DO and its agony and heartbreaking. And people get on my nerves, there's loads who are so nice and caring and are heartbroken like us, but then there's others who don't bother asking how we are, or don't even acknowledge it and they go on about their happy lives knowing full well what we're going through, I'd feel like saying don't bother coming to his funeral as ur not welcome and they never cared! :((

  • Hi R_V_B1984, 

    I am sorry to hear about what your dad and you and your family are going through. My dad was diagnosed with advanced prostate cancer back in the summertime. This has definitely been the most devastating news I have ever heard, and the hardest thing I am having to go through. My dad is a hero to me, and I love him more than anything in this world, so it's difficult knowing that he is so sick. My dad is okay at the moment, but it's difficult when our parents lives have an expiration date, or their mortality is shoved in our faces. If you ever need to talk, I'm always here, and if you need to message me, feel free. 

    I know it's difficult at this time, but just try to say everything you want to say to them, and spend as much time with him as you can. Sending my thoughts your way. And I can completely relate to how you feel that other people don't care, I also feel the same way as well. There are some people who are insenstive to my sistuation, but I think there are others who may not know what to say, or may not truly understand what you're going through, or just how difficult this is for you right now. Again, always feel free to talk on here. 

  • I am really sorry to hear what you're going through.

     

    my stepmum (who Ive been raised by from birth) was given 2-4 weeks today, and I definietly feel in shock. For me it has almost been the other way round; I took the news that it was terminal in July surprisigly well, but today when I was told her prognosis I just broke down. Does'nt help that I'm nearly 4 months pregnant or in the final few months of a degree- I feel like a wreck. My partner is supportive to a point, but isnt always useful as he doesn't really get emotional and I think he finds it hard to relate.

     

    I haven't seen my stepmum that often of late. She hs been getting worse very quickly and I find myself hysterical as soon as I get home (she is beinng cared for in her wife's home). I feel very guilty as I was told she keeps asking where I am by name, but I'm so terrified of what it will be like. I don't think it can ever be easy, but I'm trying to just get through the next few weeks and then be able to grieve properly without worrying.

     

    Hugs and positives vibes!