Hello everyone, 

I'm just writing for advice as I feel hopeless and lost right now. My relationship with my father hasn't been the best as when he and my mother split contact diminished quickly due to his then partner. Two years ago I was told by family he had been diagnosed with lung cancer, I then decided to rebuild bridges and be there for him. He had treatment in 2014 and the cancer shrunk and he was in remission in 2015. Early this year he was told the cancer had grown and given more treatment to no avail as he became weak and couldn't finish the course and now it's spread to his bones. He's lost his independence and he's become the shell of the man I knew. I just can't deal with the 10 years I lost with him. I just keep thinking in a few months he'll be gone again but for good this time. He's suffered bad memory loss due to treatment and its hard to communicate with him so I feel like I don't know how to spend these last few months with him. Last time I seen him he could barely keep his eyes open and couldn't hold a conversation. He's now in a local hospice as he can no longer care for himself and none of the family can provide 24 hour care. What can I do? I just feel like going to see him and sitting there trying to make a conversation isn't enough?