Hi

My grandad has had prostate cancer for 16 years and it has been kept under control until this year. It has now spread rapidly and he does not have long left to live.

I was raised by my grandparents so I consider them my parents. They have been together for 45 years and my nan has relied on my grandad for everything. She is absolutely devastated and I cannot console her.

I am not dealing with it very well either, bursting out into sobs every now and then. I have three young children who are all very close to their great grandad. Particularly my nine year old, as we lived with my grandparents for the first 4 years of his life. I don't know how I will explain it to them when he is gone.

My grandparents have depended on me this last year for shopping, paying bills, cleaning etc. As the oldest of three grandchildren I feel it is up to me to take control of everything but I can't.

I don't know who to speak to or where to turn. My family are already upset so I don't want to burden them or make them feel worse.

I really am lost and it still doesn't feel real. When the time comes I don't know if I will be able to accept it.

I'm seeking advice on how to deal with it all. How do I help my nan? How do I tell my boys? Will I ever come to terms with it?