Hi Louise, welcome to the forum, but so sorry to hear about your Gran having this terrible disease. I know this is hard for your Mom and also you, and some people find it hard to talk about. It is better if you do talk though, even if you do break down and cry. That's all part and parcel of getting it out there and dealing with it, rather than holding it all inside. Perhaps you can encourage your Mom to talk about it when you two are alone with each other and by doing so, you can support one another. Doing this would ease up on the isolation you feel, and no doubt your Mom feels, by suffering alone with these sad feelings. You don't mention other family members, so I don't know whether or not you have others around you. As for you having a struggle visiting your Gran; I can tell you that having you visit would mean the world to her. I'm a Gran and I have cancer and although I'm not really sick at this point, I certainly have my days. When my grandkids visit, (they are all young adults now) I really appreciate seeing them. It means so much to me when they take the time to drop in for a quick chat and a cup of tea. I also have a great granddaughter and of course, I love to see her as well. She is only 16 months old now, but she sure is a sweetie. I know you said your Gran is starting to feel quite ill and it is hard to visit with her. I think if you can manage even a short visit, it would mean so much to her. Also, to see your child for short visits would likely please her as well.

Come back on to the forum and let us know how you are and how your Gran is getting along.

Take care.

Lorraine