Hi all, my mum was diagnosed with Stage 4 Brain Cancer in January this year and even as I write this, it seems so surreal. Her treatment has ended and she is starting to deteriorate. It seems the cognitive deficit is affecting me more, I am finding my ability to function is dwindling - handling these waves of grief is all encompassing and not one of my friends has experienced this yet, I feel alone and in pain. I don't want to sit, stand, speak, be quiet, be loud etc...it is a living nightmare watching her deteriorate and I don't know how I will get through it - and then face life without her. Life seems so bleak right now. Yet everyone goes through this at some point, it is the law of nature - doesn't feel so natural to me :(