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Anticipatory Grief

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Hi all, my mum was diagnosed with Stage 4 Brain Cancer in January this year and even as I write this, it seems so surreal. Her treatment has ended and she is starting to deteriorate. It seems the cognitive deficit is affecting me more, I am finding my ability to function is dwindling - handling these waves of grief is all encompassing and not one of my friends has experienced this yet, I feel alone and in pain. I don't want to sit, stand, speak, be quiet, be loud etc...it is a living nightmare watching her deteriorate and I don't know how I will get through it - and then face life without her. Life seems so bleak right now. Yet everyone goes through this at some point, it is the law of nature - doesn't feel so natural to me :(

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    Hello Vicki I went tho similar last year my mother went down hill v quickly from secondary breast cancer spread to brain organs and bones my heart goes out to my sweet . It has got to be the worst thing in life to see your rock your mother go down hill you feel like each day you lose more of them and along side lose ur self too it's a living night mare . All I can say is try to hold on to your well mother in your mind your real mum not the one cancer is so viciously taking away from you . Try to be strong for her sweet . It's a nightmare you don't feel as though it is real you can't understand why they just can't make her better ud give any thing to take it away . My main fault was I couldn't acept what was happening you need to do this and stack any good moment that you can and be with ur mum not the cancer . All my best wishes to you at this time of hell you take care of you hugs kim x
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    Hello Vicki I went tho similar last year my mother went down hill v quickly from secondary breast cancer spread to brain organs and bones my heart goes out to my sweet . It has got to be the worst thing in life to see your rock your mother go down hill you feel like each day you lose more of them and along side lose ur self too it's a living night mare . All I can say is try to hold on to your well mother in your mind your real mum not the one cancer is so viciously taking away from you . Try to be strong for her sweet . It's a nightmare you don't feel as though it is real you can't understand why they just can't make her better ud give any thing to take it away . My main fault was I couldn't acept what was happening you need to do this and stack any good moment that you can and be with ur mum not the cancer . All my best wishes to you at this time of hell you take care of you hugs kim x
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