This year as been hard on me and my family I'm struggling to talk to my family about it because there going through same thing telling them

how I feel is adding more hurt to my family I can't really talk to my friends because they don't understand 

my dad had bowel cancer and he had a operation to get ride of the tummer then he got an infection in the same place with him been unable to move he began to get a blood clot in his leg witch stopped him from moving his left leg he then lost the leg about a week ago as we found out the night before if we didn't amputate the leg he would die in hours 

we thought it was a good idea and thought he would live a lot longer but now to find out on Friday that the cancer what he had speared and as now ended up bigger and unable to be stopped we are now watching him die and waste away lowly it is braking me and my family hearts and I just don't no what to do i love him with all my heart I wish I could do more