Dad is dying

So, I've posted on this forum before. My dad was diagnosed with esophageal cancer about 18 mths ago and at first it was thought to be curable. He had chemo and a major operation but just before Xmas we were told it had come back and wasn't treatable. Chemo to keep it in check wasn't successful and he stopped all treatment in June. So in the past few days he's really gone down hill, I thought it was just one of his dips and he'd pick up again. It isn't a dip and the nurse is trying to get him into a hospice to sort his pain relief, she says it'll be for 3 days but I think we both suspect it'll be for good. And I'm not ready, I'm not ready for this. For my dad to die, he looks so poorly now, and I knew he'd die of this but I'm scared. I can't help him. What happens at a hospice? Do I stay or leave? Will he be in a single room? 

  • Sorry about your dad. My friend spent her last days in a hospice. You do have your own room. They even let her husband bring her dogs to visit because she wanted to say goodbye to them. Her husband stayed in her room overnight and was there when she passed.

    She really wanted to make it to her 50th birthday, but this happened when she'd just turned 49 so she didn't make it. However when she went into the hospice, she became totally at peace with what was to come. She said she knew her mum was waiting and it would be OK.  Not saying it was because of the hospice, but I think the tranquility helped.

  • Thank you for replying. I hope the hospice can help my dad to feel less pain and make him comfortable. Any peace he could get would be worth my upset. 

     

  • How is your dad today???? You r on my thoughts. X
  • He's got a morphine driver fitted and they've increased the amount of morphine which is helping. The down side of that for me is that dad is drifting off a lot. He is sat in the chair gazing into space but does day that he can hear us talking to him. The drive to the hospice was horrific, I cried almost the entire way and no one was available to help me get him there. I was so scared I would drop him between house and car. But now he is getting great care at the hospice so I am not as terrified as  I was. I don't know if he will come home or not. Thank you for thinking of me xx