Don't think like that. Your partner wouldn't want you to think like that. Just be stron strong strong. I'm in the exact situation but I have to be strong. Pls take care of him and yourself.

Hi Izzy, 

I'm so sorry to hear about your husband's situation and that you're having such a tough time at the moment. If you feel like things are getting a little bit too much for you, maybe you could give Samaritans a call? You can find their website here and talk to them on 116 123. This number is free and they are available 24 hours a day, 365 days a year.

Also, do not blame yourself for what has happened as this is not your fault. Sadly cancer affects so many and we don't know why but I want you to know that you are not alone. I'm glad you have joined as many members on the forum will really understand what you are going through having been in similar situations themselves and I know they will come to offer their support and advice soon.

Post as much as you need to Izzy and remember that we are here for you if you need us.

Best wishes to you and your husband,

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

Hi Izzy

You have every reason to feel like you do and find yourself rock bottom right now, you are suffering from severe depression. It's easy for others to tell you to snap out of it, or be strong, or pull yourself together. If you could you would, but its not that easy.

Have you a friend or relative you can talk to and who could help you out, maybe by just giving you a hug, a kind word, cooking you a meal, or helping you tidy one room in your home.

Steph has given you some helpful advice, please try to make that call today on 116 123, you will feel better about yourself just by talking to and having someone who listens to and understands you.

Make an urgent appointment with your GP and discuss what you have said here, they too can really give you some help.

Also talk to your partners named McMillan nurse at the hospital both about how you feel and also about your financial situation, they can help you get some assistance.

Your partner really needs you right now so please stay around for him. Kim