Hi Kellie, 

I am so sorry to hear about your dad. My dad is also 63 and he has advanced prostate cancer in his bones and lymph nodes. We just found this out a month ago. I am not sure how the steroids work in this situation, but I just wanted you to know you aren't alone in dealing with this. If you need to chat I am here! 

Hi im sorry to hear about your dad its awful isent it and iv found out the steriods are to help with the swelling in the brain im finding it hard to control my emotions infront of my dad and hes not the type of man who would let us cry in front of him how are you coping with your dads illness? My dad is acting like hes getting better he refuses to accept hes dyeing and acting normal ish i just cant imagine life without my dad x

Sorry for the late reply. I can relate to you feeling like you can't cry in front of your dad. My dad is also the same way. He is very easy going and takes things as they come, and he doesn't like to see me or my family cry. It can be hard at times, but I would say to try to take some time for yourself, maybe a quiet room and just cry it all out. It's completely normal to cry in your situation. We're grieving for somebody who is still alive, but we are also grieving the tomorrow's we'll never get. Since I'm only 26, it feels like I'm being robbed of my dad. My life is finally going the way I want it to, and my life is just beginning and now my dad's life is ending. It's not fair. We will cry. I don't cry so much anymore, but sometimes before bed I'll think about it and just cry before I head to bed. 

It is hard dealing with this as my mom and I are taking care of my dad. He still seems relatively healthy, but he's not able to work anymore becasue we found out how fragile his bones are. It's hard because he's always been such a strong man, but my dad has accepted this. Although he has accepted this, he also has a high belief in God and believes he can be healed of this. I hope that my dad will always have this piece of mind, and i think that will get him through this. I would give absolutely anything in order to heal my dad. It's really hard dealing with the fact that we can't really do anything about this situation. All we can do is sit here and watch him die, which sounds morbid, I don't mean it so literally but I just feel so helpless. 

If you ever need to chat, I'm always here.