So, Here goes,

Last year my Dad was diagnosed with Stage 3 Lung cancer. Luckily he was operated on pretty fast and also received CHemo and Radiotherpy. A few months ago we were told things were looking pretty good. After another scan we were told he had a slight shadow on his liver but once agian, we were told not to worry, maybe trhey were just being thoughtful.

In february we found out that he has secondary liver cancer and there is nothing that can be done. Devastated is an understatment. My mum and dad have been together since they were in their 20's and dad is only 63. Even though I'm 31, which is still young, i feel like my dad should be invincible.Ive served in war zones across the world but this is a different feeling of being anxious and scared.

Yesterday he said he has itchy skin and started having pains more often but just on and off at the moment. SO, to me its his liver starting to struggle to work properly.

The waiting around is killing me. The unkown is killing me. Thinking about going to my parents and not having my dad to watch rugby and eat nibbles with is killing me.

I bloody hate this. I really don't know what to do to help my mum, dad and the rest of the family.

I'm sat in work writing this with my eyes filling up :|:|:|

I don't really know why I'm writing this..Maybe for replies of support or other people going through the same thing.

WIll