My husband, 46 years old was diagnosed with kidney cancer in January of this year which has spread. It's stage 4 already. He was a hard working strong full of life man and the hardest part is watching his body fail whilst his mind is still active. The most distressing part for me is I keep thinking about his funeral, and how lonely I will be when he's gone. I can't seem to be positive, although to him I am. I'm just dreading the inevitable and what his poor body will go through at the end