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I'm dying of cancer & have weeks to live

Swiftgirl69
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I have cancer for the second time & now have a few weeks to live. I'm a 46 year old female. I have cancer in my pelvis, small bowel & around my liver. My bowels haven't worked since Oct/Nov. So as a result I can't eat & have been in hospital since Nov being fed thru a picc line. But it has caused major vomiting & so now I've had to stop the feed. And I now must accept I will die in a very short space of time. 

I am totally heartbroken. I always believed I would be healed. I've juiced, attended a herbalist, reiki, visualisation, meditation, positive thinking, the list goes on. But I've been told my small bowel is totally matted & there is nothing can be done. I met the love of my life 2 years ago & we're engaged. I had always suffered from anxiety & problems from childhood & went to counselling when I had cancer 5 years ago. I truly feel my life is only just beginning & now I'm dying. 

How can I make peace with dying? I was online shopping last week buying loads of clothes for the year ahead I was so sure I would be healed. I've just read Anita Moorjani's book Dying to be Me who had an amazing Near Death Experience & from what she says there is nothing to fear from death & I do believe that. I just feel heartbroken cos I don't feel my time on earth is finished. I have so many hopes plans & dreams. :-( 

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    I am so sorry to hear this I completely understand how you feel and it is a heart breaking feeling to know what is going to happen and that you have tried all you can to try and lengthen your life . Always here if you would like to talk . Me and my partner got together 4 years ago and have just had a beautiful baby . To find out my cancer has come back at 28 is devestating to know I am not going to get my happy ending is truly heart breaking so I truly do understand  wishing you all the best and as little pain as possible xx

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    I just want to send you all the love and strength in the world .your love and aura will forever shine ...

    I'm just hoping your light still shines ... You have touched many hearts on here .... Some people come in to our lives for a reason ... To give us a lesson , l think you've done just that ... The picture you put on here is how wonderful your soul is ... Thank you for the beautiful light you are ...

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    what a inspirational woman ..

     

    god bless her 

  • Offline in reply to Swiftgirl69

    This forum is actually heartbreaking. Reading the replies of the person who assumly has died. It chills me. Yet looking at the support fills me with hope that swift was supported till the end.

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    This is truly heartbreaking to read. I’m very sorry for what you are going through, and I apologise in advance in case I don’t get it right, but put it this way. You feel like your time on earth is over because it isn’t, and the only way to make that feeling go away is to use the time you do have left to start to pursue your hopes and dreams. You don’t have to win a Nobel prize but you should do some of those things you’ve always wanted to do but always been scared of, or never had the time. Maybe then you’ll feel a little more fulfilled when the time does come. Hopefully it won’t be for a long time. Good luck

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    You poor brave person sending wat love I have left to you xx

  • Offline in reply to Teacupp

    I know what you mean - sadly Swiftgirl was only active on here for 8 days. 

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