Please don't try to rein in your emotions - its better to let them out and other people around you , including your dad, will feel easier about doing the same. I think if my family and friends didnt have a meltdown now and then I would maybe think they didnt care.  I personally don't think people should hold it all together.  A jolly good cry can sometimes completely clear your head and calm you down.

Hi

When my dad was dying from prostate cancer and secondary lung cancer he was stronger than my Mum or I. When we were in the final stages of his journey he remained dry eyed(at least when we were there) but we felt the need to shed tears for him, for us and in fear of what was to be.  This was nearly  nine years ago and I can honestly say his words still hit home (and were useful to me when I lost my husband a year ago). He told us that life was for living and though we may be sad at the thought of his loss, he had lived how he wanted to live and wished that we would do the same. I did and still do cry at emotional times (both sad and happy) and have come to accept that this is nature's way of release and some healing.

My only tip and am not sure how helpful it can be is that cry when  you need to (your Dad will not think any the less of you) and tell your Dad how you feel so that you have no regrets at a missed opportunity.

Use the forum to share your feelings if it helps you to do so. Hugs  Jules54x

Thank you for your support everyday seems to get a little hard as you know any day now they will be gone but I know in my heart I can't bear him suffering any longer and for him to be  at peace.