Hi all,
My dad was diagnosed with advanced prostate cancer a year ago. Ever since then it's been an ongoing battle coming to terms with the fact his cancer is incurable, and not knowing how long he has left. The cancer broke his spine and nearly left him paralysed, as a result he has lost a foot in height (he was never tall to begin with), and since commencing on steroids, has ended up looking very puffy and essentially very different to the dad I know. I myself am an intensive care nurse, newly qualified and in my early twenties, so half the battle has been realising I am powerless and can do nothing to help him. He was re-admitted to hospital today, after the drug he's been on which were meant to buy us more time stopped working, and he has since started vomitting- unable to keep anything down, including his much needed pain relief. I'm scared as we don't know what this means.
I live very far away from my parents, so I am unable to rush home. I guess I'm just really struggling at the moment. I didn't know what to do or where to turn. I guess I just felt the need to share everything I've been bottling up for so long with some people who understand.
I'm at a complete loss - I feel lost and angry and sad. I worry this will affect my work life as working 12 and a half hour shifts 3 to 4 times a week, I really need to be with it.
Any words would be greatly appreciated.
