Hi, my name is Nic

In 2013, my Dad was diagnosed with satge 3 esohageal cancer.  He underwent chemo, surgery to have the tumour removed, followed by more chemo.  Well my Dad came out the other side and became clear and well again.  Just recently, he was suffering again with holding food down and lost a lot of weight.  We all thought it was something to do with scar tissue forming from his op which we were told could happen.

Sadly, Dad was admitted to hospital on Monday as he no longer had any energy and hadn't eaten for nearly a week.  They had been doing tests and had a gastroscopy but they couldn't get the camera down.  After 5 days in hospital, yesterday my Dad was told his cancer is back around his stomach and there is nothing they can do.  They can't tell him how long he has left but they are going to attempt radiotherapy if they can build him back up enough.

He is currently waiting to have surgery to put in a feeding tube so if it isn't tonight it will be in the morning.  I don't seem to have come to terms with this yet!  I keep thinking someone is going to come up with a solution and he will make it!  I feel numb & still positive somehow.  When will it sink in what's going on.  My Dad is my world, I can't lose him :(