Hello

I'm so sorry to hear your news.  This is a terrible shock for you.  I lost my dad a week and a half ago after he was diagnosed four weeks ago.   I know the fear you feel only too well, as although it wasn't Australia, he lived a three hour drive away and we didn't see a lot of each other, though spoke on the phone a lot.   When he came to live with me when he was diagnosed, I was scared of everything - his frail appearance scared me, not being strong enough scared me, every morning a new wave of fear would wash over me as I opened my eyes.    However, looking back, I wish I could have tried to stop expecting so much of myself and just trust that you will be ok as each cituation arises, taking each day as it comes.   I am hardly a person to turn to in a crisis as my family will testify, but we all managed fine at this important time.   Take each day as it comes and be kind to yourself.  You obviosuly love him a lot and I'm sure he knows it.  Be brave x