Thoughts on the Dying Process

I insert my late wife's thoughts.  She died of Kidney cancer of the lymph glands on 19th January this year.  She was very positive to the end and tried hard to learn and share her experience for the benefit of others.

Please feel free to view and read and share with anyone who would benefit.  Debbie's horror was dying young and mine is living without her but her message is one of hope. xxx

  • Hi Jules,

    How did the Friday meet go? I hope all positive...I was thinking about it over the weekend...

    I have just been reminded I may have both of my daughters dogs next weekend!!! ... help.. when will this come to a end?  Now I have a developing relationship I could do without all these pre-relationship commitments I generously made!!

    Hope you have a good week Jules ... you deserve it

    Big virtual kiss X

    Ian

  • Hi Ian

    Thanks for thinking of us.  Hubby got through Friday pretty well and seemed to enjoy catching up with what's happening with the company and he was back home round about lunch time. He had a short nap in the afternoon and was able to go out and enjoy his social evening with his friend down their local for a couple of hours.  As usual not much chatting to me but it was good for him to get out of the house.  Apart from managing the trip to the supermarket on Saturday, he spent most of the day sleeping and I just woke him for meals.  By Sunday he was a bit more with it and though did not come with me when I went to the Farmers'Market ( he has never really bothered walking unless we were on holiday!!) he did enjoy some family time when our daughter and family popped in for a couple of hours. All in all a reasonable couple of days.

    Are you sure you are not running a 'boarding kennels'  Poor Jack (and you) having your live's ruled by other four legged friends - thats what happens when you try to be helpful!!  Now that you are having a new social life you will have to be a little more careful about saying 'yes' and gently explain you are a little 'too busy'. .

    Have a good week and hope your new friend likes dogs!!

    Take care and 'cyber hugs' Jules x

  • Hi Jules,

    Just a quick note as I'm in court today and in a rush..... my new lady is a cats person!! So I am slowly weaning her over.  Jack helps because he is so well behaved but Jo's dogs may be a bit of a challenge when I've got them and she comes round!!....We'll see.

    So pleased the work trip went well .

    Lots of affection to you

    Ian x

  • Hi Jules and Ian

    Many thanks for your posts.  Have not been on-line for a couple of days as I was felling "bleaurgh".  This is a word from my daughter.  Not sure where she got it from or even if it is a word but it sums up how I felt.   I think it was mainly tiredness as i had not slept well for a few nights.  thankfully seem to be on the up now.

    Daughter came home form Uni on Saturday for a flying visit.  I say flying as it was only a matter of hours but it involved husband driving the hour and 15 minutes to collect her and then home and then back to Uni the same day.  She had a paper due in at 10 am yesterday morning.  She has not said yet if she is coming home next weekend (it is my birthday) but I think she wants to do something for me.  I have said to leave it and we will celebrate at the end of my treatment.  You will have inferred from ths that daughter cannot drive.  Failed her test last summer and since beginning Uni has not had time to even think about lessons.  Says she will think about it in the summer.  Not sure she will have much time as she already has a summr job lined up.

    Big hugs to you both.

    Gill

  • Hi Ian

    Hope the day in court kept you out of mischief. My sister in law is definitely a cat person (has always kept two at a time) but still loves dogs. Just as well really as when she and her brother and sister in law eventually move in together (checking out Isle of Man in a few weeks time with this in mind) it will be with the cats and the huskie!!  Am sure your lady friend will be fine with all the animals (and after all it will only be a temporary situation) and its you she comes to see.  Have fun.

    Have visited Mum as usual today and had to break the news that the home fees are to be increased from next month.  Response ' thats a nuisance and when will you bring good news?'.  That followed her 'switching back off' and dozing off bless her so I did not stay too long.  Got home around half hour ago and hubby also sleeping so it looks as though it will be a quiet afternoon again.  Planning on having pancakes for lunch as its Shrove Tuesday but will just have to wait until he wakes up.

    Take care  Jules x

  • Hi Gill

    Sorry you have had a few yucky days (love your daughter's word for it) but hopefully you will continue to feel better. When mu hubby had  the palliative chemo tiredness was certainly one of the main nuisance factors(continues to be tired now but then we know thats the cancer and the medication) and it comes in waves.  Am sure you just have to 'listen' to your body and act accordingly but hopefully in the longer term it will all be worth it.

    It must be lovely to have your daughter visit even if its only for a short while.. When my son was at Uni (few years ago now!!) I think we went to see him about three times and he only came back Christmas and Summer break (he worked the other breaks to help with costs as well as Weekends during his first two years).  He used to get the coach home (he did not learn to drive until he could afford to run a car) but we did help him when he moved out of Halls into student share house.  I have never driven (other than perhaps the other half mad) but then we have great transport links locally so its not an issue.  At present hubby is still able to drive - think he will be like a bear with a sore head when he is unable to do this.

    Take care of yourself. Jules x

  • Hi Ian,

    Just catching up with you and glad to see things are positive and busy.

    Your new lady being a cat person is good as at least she is an animal person.

    Was that a typo or were you really trying to wean her???? !!!! LOL.

    My husband and I are going to Scotland soon for 5 days and my neighbour is having our dog for us.

    She's been round today to walk her and take her to her home for a while and we will be doing this as often as we can in the next 10 days.

    Chessie is a dog who loves her routine so we have to build her a slightly new routine to help her be comfortable whislt we are away.

    I'll be interested how your new friend gets on with yours and Jo's dogs.

    Hope your looking after yourself,

    take care

    hugs

    Annabel. xx

  • Hi Annabel,

    It was really nice to hear from you....Yes it was a typo .

    Yes I've just learnt I am having both my daughters dogs for the weekend!! and I'm hoping to see my new lady!. So I will have my border collie (male) and Jo's: Bull Terrier (Male registered dog) and her Vizsla (bouncy young female)...help.

    The two males keep to them selves but really need to be separated for safety or I have to mussel Archie the Bull Terrier who will then spend most of his time trying to get it off!  He has to be mussel out by law either way... as he is a registered Pit Bull.

    Its going to be a difficult weekend !*!

    Lots of virtual hugs

    Ian x

  • Hi Ian.

    It's lovely to hear back from you too. It does sound like you are going to have a fun weekend with three dogs and a lovely lady.

    I hope your lady friend sees the nicer side of all the dogs for your sake. I used to have cats at one time but only dogs in recent years.

    I like the bond built with the dog better. For me cats can be too independent.

    Wishing you a lovely weekend and with good weather,

    love and hugs

    Annabel. xx

  • Hi Annabel,

    Hope you have a great weekend too .

    Mine is going to be stressful either way you look at it, but I am bracing my self up for it.....!

    Lots of kind thoughts.

    Ian x