Thank You yet again Jules ...

Yes too much thinking.

Yet, however much we cope and move on ... and I am in so many ways ....  and it is exciting .... and there is a future out there for me,..... I'd still give anything to have her back.

Yes that's stating the obvious but it's a consequence of having her within me if not with me: I'd prefer the latter.

Hope you are having a positive week

Kind thoughts

Ian x

Hi Ian

Would be more worried if you did not want her back to be  honest as you had a very special journey with a very special woman (just feel that way having read her writings) and can't yet imagine how life will be in our future so try not to go there!

This week has been emotionally draining.  Daughter had our second grandson on Tuesday  and all went well until after the birth then my daughter suffered a few problems and ended up in theatre and needing blood transfusions.  Upshott is she is still in hospital and we have been doing afternoon school runs with our eldest grandson and giving him dinner before either taking him to the hospital (Wed) or waiting for his Dad to pick him up Thursday.  She is feeling a lot better now and is hoping to get home soon and know they will not keep her in any longer than necessary.  Happily the baby is a good size and has a very hands on Daddy and big brother is already helping with feeding and changing and is so gentle its lovely to see.

Today is mapped out, launderette at 7.30 (bit late as I slept in -amazing) , back home to get hubby sorted, out at 10 to visit my Mum and then hubby met me at supermarket for the weekly shop.  Unless we hear otherwise will do the school run later and then I am out for the evening (everything being okay).  Life is certainly not dull.

Hope you have a peaceful weekend and that your daughter's foot is on the mend. Hope your son is now well settled into his new flat too.  virtual hugs. Jules xx

Hi Jules,

Wow! you really are having no time to rest.  But VERY big congratualtions on your new grandson ... I am glad to learn your daughter is going to be okay!!  That must hav been so frightening.  I hope you have a good evening out; you will certainly have deserved it. x

Yes my son is settling well and my daughter's foot has healed sufficient for her to be back at work.  She is now busy trying to make up the money lost so as to pay her bills!!  If you have Sky, and can record, my daughter's cat should be on Channel 4 tonight at the end of the first episode of Man Down (Greg Davies) comedy sit com.  Her cat should appear at the end and wee in a shoe!!

Lots of kind thoughts

Ian x

Hi Ian,

Well thank you for a big laugh. I have just read about your daughters claim to fame tonight with her tiddling cat. wonderful.

I shall look out for it tonight.

I am sure your wife would have loved the scene.

Best wishes to you,

Annabel.

Thank you Annabel,

I can reveal also that after the shoot.  Greg, being much taller than my daughter, accidentally bumped into her whilst still in his pajamas needed in the take and my daughters cat (Milly - a begal tiger cat) lashed out and you can guess where her claws caught hold!!  Apparently everyone - except - Greg - on the set fell apart!!

Kind regards

Ian x

..Whoops.....

....She wasn't on this episode!! I'll have to watch them all now to catch her!!

Yes, Debbie would have been so proud both of this, my sons new job situation and the world wide reading of her 'Thoughts on the Dying Process' but as I say above: it doesnt bring her back and while I accept that - I don't like it or like having to accept it!!

Ian x

Dear All

... I really do hope All those New to this Site do click the view and read on the first page?  As opposed to jumping to the last post.

Kind thoughts

Ian

Hi Jules,

I hope you are having a less stressful week?  I'm trying to look forward at the moment and make some decisions as to what I want to do ..... its difficult to know what route to take sometimes.  Then I read of other peoples issues on some of the threads here and it takes me back to where I have been and realize how fragile life really is ~ especially when we are healthy and are taking so much for granted.  We have to live for today and that may mean 'dancing in the rain'!

Lots of kindness to you

Ian x

Hi Ian

Am actually really enjoying myself so far this week (could have something to do that as from yesterday am on two weeks break from work, yippee!!  Not done much so far other than get my blood tests done and do the housework but nice not to have the added stress of the shop just now.  Today I have had some retail therapy and my hubby has gone to see his old workmates following a phone call from them for some help with a job thats come in so expect him to return home tired but feeling useful).  He is noticeably more withdrawn (if thats possible!!) as his next check up drawers closer (next Tuesday) and we are both anxious as I am aware he hs been experiencing more discomfort these last couple of weeks and suspect his drug regime will have to be adjusted.

Planning  how you would like to move on in your new life (which you have not asked for) must be hard to concentrate on sometimes and I suspect some days it is easier to think about than others. Time passes but memories are with you forever.  Wishing you peaceful thoughts. Take care. Jules xx

Hi Jules,

Fingers crossed for Tuesday x.

I've just cut my grass in the strong wind without the box on so the grass blows away ... just finished before some rain came!  Now off to get some milk and walk the dog early .... Hope you are battened down for this evening?  As I live rurally with over head cables its just time now till we loose electricity!!

A night in I think

Be safe

Ian xx